Lately I've been feeling a little down in the dumps. I really have no reason to. I bought a new (to me) car, which I looooove. Things have been going extremely well at work and at home. I am unsure what brings on these emo times. But I am truly sick of it. Because when I get this way, I eat. Cry and eat. So I have gained some weight. I am at 197 today. Depressing. Almost back to 200 lbs. Which causes me more sadness.
Normal people do not eat when they get sad, or do they? I have a toxic relationship with food. I bought a box of cookies and ate them all but 2. I kept going in the kitchen to get another and another and another until they were gone. I am so disappointed in myself, yet I keep going down this route.
Anyone else feel like this?
I'm right there with you... I just ate like 1000 calories yesterday (AFTER DINNER) because I was bored. BORED.
ReplyDeleteHow ridiculous.
I feel ya! I sometimes will go to sleep early because I am bored, just so I will not eat.
DeleteI honestly believe getting down here and there is just a part of life. You don't strike me as someone willing to stay down, so I'm sure you're over there keeping your head up. Cause you know this is only a temporary thing.
ReplyDeleteContinue to focus on the positives in your life, and as I see there are many.
I can relate this blog entry! I'm a baker in my spare time, and I only allow myself one slice of cake, or one cupcake or one cookee just to taste what I have made, and I make sure my guests eat everything else. I intentionately dont have sweets in my home for myself because I will eat it all. When I get depressed, I sleep. Alot. Saturdays, especially since it rains alot here in Portland, I have no problem sleeping alot. Lately, though, I've been successfuly convincing myself that I should be happy. I try to push negative thoughts out of my head- things I can't change. Things I have to roll my sleeves and deal with. Then, a family member or friend will call with a problem worse than anything I'm dealing with, and then I feel gratefull that my issues aren't that bad.
ReplyDeleteOh my God! That is my weakness, cupcakes! I always say, "Fake it til you make it!" If you allow negative thoughts, guess what happens! :)
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