Ehhh

So my stomach looks so much better, no redness or anything. I am going to assume i get my first fill on the 22nd. 9 weeks from my surgery date! Man this has been a long 9 weeks. I am down about 35 lbs now from my scale. I havent seen this weight since I had Kianna. 0_o. I often ask myself, HOW did i let this happen?! Why did i allow myself to get so dang fat. smh. But i really dont have a response to it. I would always say, Yah im fat but im cute so it dont matter! Yes, it does matter cus although I am not unattractive, my mind was! Inside i was miserable. And you could tell by my attitude. I see myself differently now. I may not be anywhere near my goal weight, but I already feel different inside. Anyway when i first had the surgery I was a size 22, I am now fitting into a Forever 21 size 16. I am unsure if those run big or what, but a SIXTEEN!!! woo hoo! Now dont get me wrong, if there isnt any stretch, i cant fit into a 16 lol Probably an 18. But whatever I have a pair of size 16 pants on now *takes a bow*
I miss my friends. I feel kinda lonely. My bestie is in Vegas, and i havent spoken much to any other friends here. So tonight I have decided to take my butt out! I havent gone out since New years eve. I dont count Vegas cus really, i was still recovering and my butt should have been home anyway lol. Most of my clothes are way too big so I gotta figure out what I am gonna wear out. :/ And do I have one drink or not. I havent had a drink since before my surgery so I do not know how it will affect me. I am kinda scared.
Anyway gotta get back to work
XOXO
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6 weeks out

Well so much has happened in these short 6 weeks. I have been fighting off an infection at my port site. I am on my 2nd round of antibiotics. :( I have yet to get a fill due to the infection, but i am at 31 lbs gone so far. Woo Hoo. Well thats from MY home scale lol I was getting nervous so i decided to go see my dr's office to get a 2nd opinion on the infection. The Dr said he has seen much worse but gave me a shot of antibiotics in addition to what I was already taking. Sometimes I wish I had never done this, but then I am happy with my decision. It is certainly not as easy as i thought it was going to be. I have to always have my meals planned and i cant just get up and go, and maybe grab something while im out. Measuring out the food etc. Knowing how much to eat. The PA says 1/2 a cup. But when i look in my notes it says i should eat 3-4 oz of meat - well 4 oz is 1/2 cup.. what about my veggies etc? ugh I may have to go to a dang nutrition meeting soon so i know exactly what I should be eating and brush up on my information. Anyway, I'll post some pics tonight when I get home. I dont think much has changed.

XOXO