Fill Under Floro

July 8th is the date! Prayers that this test shows the leak so we can submit to my insurance company to have the band revised or fixed. I have gained about 20 lbs since the whole leak thing started back in March. Now, I have not been as strict as I used to be so that is not helping at all. I just need ya'll to pray that this test shows something.

Thanks!

My body...

just does not want to let this weight go. Or maybe I am not working hard enough! It probably is the 2nd choice. I am not as militant with my foods as some WLS patients are. I just can't be. As much as I want to eat all the healthy bland foods. Its just not for me.

Here is the real reason for this post. I need to remember I have lost a lot of weight at this point. This first picture was taken in Nov of 2010. I was wide as hell. Lord have mercy! I never realized how big I was. But I had so much more confidence.

 

And here is me last week. I mean, is that really me? Such a huge change. Why is it I see the woman up there when I look in the mirror. Where is the pretty chick in the bottom picture?

I take pictures along the way to see the progress because I am unable to see it in a mirror. Isn't it funny how the mind works?

Anyway, I am under 200 lbs, now lets just get into the 180's!

XOXO,

Erica

199.6

Woot Woot!! *shakes booty*

Yup! I finally broke the stall and I am now in the Onderland! Lord knows it has taken so long to get to this point! I think I did a few fist pumps and jumped up and down a few times too! That means I only need to lose 45 more pounds! I know I can do this! Smaller portions, veggies, etc

I just had to share that!

Have a wonderful rest of the day!

XOXO

Erica

One Day At A Time

Yup! That is what it has to be. I have to stop drinking soda. I seen someone post a blog about getting rid of soda for one week. So I will do that. Starting today, I am going to drink water. I bought two 1 liter bottles of water this morning so that I have something to drink all day otherwise I'd just hit up the vending machine for a Dr Pepper.

This has to be the hardest thing for me to cut out of my diet. I guess I will just pray on it.

I know I am not the only one that has this issue, or am I? 
 

Ramblings

Looking at old pictures.......
I do this every day almost to remind myself that I have came so far, 56 pounds may not seem like that much compared to people who have lost damn near 100 pounds in their first year but its a huge weight off of my back, literally. I am human and I allow myself to make mistakes (usually eating or trying to eat something I should not) but that is the beauty in this journey. Being able to make mistakes then correcting them and not allowing yourself to feel guilty. My journey is not going to be like yours, and yours will never be mine. So since I have realized that I wont lose 100 pounds in my first year I have noticed a difference in myself. For the better of course.

These past 10 months have been very emotional for me, I have never allowed my emotions get the best of me. I have held it all in and together. But boy oh boy when they say once you have this surgery things will come up, they sure do. I find myself getting teary eyed over every little thing. A TV show, a commercial. Even remembering my Atlanta trip. Silly, I know. Its crazy how I can go from so happy to so sad and alone within moments. I do not wish this upon anyone, okay well maybe a couple of people. ;)

Next week I take Kianna to go see Katy Perry. I am really not too excited for this to be honest but anything to make my kids happy right? When I took Ayanna to Power House 2011 I seen a smile I had never seen before which made me happy. So its my turn to see Miss Kianna smile i suppose.

Anyway im off to work now...
XOXO