Monday!

Atlanta here I come... I am sitting here so very anxious to be on that plane to the A. All I need to do is pack my toiletries and I am all ready to go! I have nothing planned other than my ink session. Which is the most exciting for me. Just some time away will do me good!
My oldest got 3 books over the weekend and she almost all 3. I am so glad she has found some books that she likes. Usually I have my kids 50% of the time and the other 50% they are with the ex, but I have had them the last two weeks and its been nice. Just me and my babies! We went to the outdoor swap-meet yesterday and walked around. I bought a flat iron because mine crapped out on me and the oldest got some skinny jeans. I should have bought some for myself! $10 for jeans?! That is an AWESOME deal! But I didn't. I really don't think my suitcase needs any more clothes in it.
All I can think about is getting my tail to LAX and flying across the US! My mind is so funny when it comes to my trips. Nothing else matters, besides my kids, I really wish my bestie could have came with me. I sometimes get a little nervous traveling alone. Thankfully, I know people in Atlanta who will keep me company. 
Friday is City Of Ink's 5 year anniversary show. I have never been to an art show, of any sort but it is time to do things out of the norm for me. I planned my trip for this time due to the show. I am excited!
Is it bad that I haven't even gotten my tattoo and I already want another one? o_O
Okay i gotta work for now...
XOXO
Erica

More Ramblings....

Well I am headed back to my favorite place, Atlanta! I get to get some more body art by Melvin Todd. And see an Art show at City Of Ink. I swear if i lived in Atlanta id be marked up like a subway in harlem - sorry had to use that line. Lets hope I dont cry this time when I have to come home. I leave Wednesday morning! I have 3 days off of work next week. Much needed to say the least. I totally expect to lose weight since I know when I am vacationing I always forget to eat! I hope I can finally get under the 200 lb mark. Anyway, me going on vacation allows me to clear my mind. I come back in a better space. I hope that me getting away from this allows me to also come back and get on track with the gym. I really need to stop playing around and just do it.
Speaking of clearing my mind. Being a mother to a teenaged girl is hard work! I never ever imagined it would be as hard as it has been. While it isnt as bad as other mothers Ive heard horror stories about, its tough work. I am 32, shes 13. Sometimes I have to remember that we are learning together. She speaks with me about issues with school. And I try to guide her in the right direction. But she is a miss know it all, as was I when I was her age. Boys are becoming an issue. I tell her not to be in a rush to grow up, she will wish she had her kid years back. But what do I know. In her eyes I was never in her place. Nevermind I met her father when I was 14. Got pregnant with her at 17 and had her at 18. I never got the chance to be a young adult. I was a mother of two by 20 and a wife with kids by 21. I just hope she sees me and realizes I do know what I am talking about.
Woah that turned into a mini venting session. Anyway time for me to go to bed, I am sleepy!
XOXO
Erica

Five Things I'm Grateful For

1. My kids
2. Health
3. Life
4. I am able to travel
5. My bestie

BYOC

It's FRIDAY so that means it's BYOC - Bring Your Own Crazy! Brought to you by the one and only Drazil! We answer a couple of questions in an effort to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy and paste and answer in your own blogs if you'd like!! ENJOY!!

1. Name a Valentine gift you would NOT want to receive.
   -Any type of candy.
2. What’s your vacation personality? Do you act/eat/talk/do things differently or completely opposite from when you are not on vacation?
    -I am me while on vacation. Nothing changes. I actually eat less while I am away because I am scared something will get "stuck"
3. Describe yourself in 5 POSITIVE words.
   -Boy, this is hard..
   1. Funny
   2. Outgoing
   I give up.. lol
   
4. Do you have any phobias or irrational fears or dislikes?
   -I fear being alone. Like forever.
   
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in blog land and in real life.
   In real life, things have been great. I am 12 days away from being in Atlanta. My son is back in baseball and the girls are helping with the team. All 3 kids are getting good grades! Life is well!
   
   In blogland, I am still trying to blog a bit more. I am so dang random so its hard. My brain is pretty scattered when it comes to writing.

Thin = Perfect?

So I find myself thinking, if i were only size 7 I would be perfect. When did being thin equal perfect? I never really knew how big I really was. I was given some old pictures of when Kianna was a year old. I was so wide. So so sooooo big. I am so embarrassed. Anyway back to my original thought. Media tends to make women doubt ourselves by shoving these size 2's in our face. Now let me set the record straight, I never want to be a size 2. I NEED my curves. I love having thick thighs and a round booty. Just want them toned. But even if i were a size 2, would I be happy? Or would I try to be a size 0.
My mind is constantly on how to make myself "pretty" meaning losing weight. I wonder if this will ever stop, even when I reach goal weight. Which by the way isn't by any means skinny. I mean really, I am 5'1" and I want to be 150. I'd still be considered overweight.
I mean how many overweight people are really honestly happy by the way they look? One may claim to be "happy and love themselves" the way they are, but at my highest weight, I was depressed and I just didn't care enough about myself to change anything. Now that I am half way to my goal, I sit here and think how in the hell did I not love myself enough to take care of ME! Being a mom and a wife, I put me on the back burner. It wasn't until I divorced did I really start caring about the way I looked. And now its an obsession.
Anyway this totally got off topic yet again. Me and my ramblings.. but I do not want to be skinny, I want some curves.
Until next time...

Erica

Such a great weekend...

So since yesterday was Super Bowl Sunday, i tried to avoid going anywhere that may serve tasty snacks as I had tons of calories Saturday night drinking all night. So that meant I was going to stay home. Anti-social because of food. Not the way I want to live my life. I went to the Swapmeet in the early afternoon and decided  I was going to eat a Papusa. Those things are always so tasty. So I walked for a couple of hours looking at all the pictures, and whatever else was being sold. I stumbled upon a booth with Loungefly items and sunglasses. I love love love Loungefly. They always have the best purse/wallets. So I bought myself the cutest purse/wallet combo. Its black with cream "day of the dead" skulls on it. See below:

All of the sudden I am really into this type of stuff. I want to decorate my living room with pictures. I want kind of a "dark" feel in my living room. Not sure why but I just do.

So Saturday night I went to my favorite club, Cantina lounge, in Fullerton. I haven't went out since my birthday in December. It was nice. Met my friend Melvin and his people up there. Wore this dress:

So don't mind the fuzzy pictures, I was already pretty intoxicated when I got home and thought it was a good idea to have a mini photo shoot with my blackberry *sigh*


All in all my weekend was great! Didnt over do it with food!
Oh wait, I went shopping with my great friend Rhonnie - I met her momma for the first time, Joan is AWESOME! Seriously I dont think I have laughed like I did in so long so shoutout to Joan!
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So I just re-read this, and i am so random - excuse that part of me, I can never stay on track with a story. XOXO
Erica