The end of 2011

So its about 3 hours and 45 mins til 2012 and instead of being out drinking with my friends at the Butterfly Lounge, I am home with my mini's. Basketball shorts and a Big K.R.I.T shirt! Stylin'! Anyway the reason for this blog is to get some thoughts off my mind.
Being the mother of a plus size teenager her and I had a talk about weight and what not. Obviously she knows I've have the lapband and really watch what we eat at home, but I cant be with her 24/7 as I share custody with the ex. 50/50! So she and I have an agreement, in 2012, we will both go to the gym and focus on weight loss. If you know me, you know I HATE working out and being sweaty! Gross! So this is something I am willing to do to help my lil mama get in shape!
I am in a better mind state than I was last year. 2010 wasnt a bad year, it just wasnt nearly as great as 2011 was. I allowed myself to let walls down and allowed myself to feel. While it didnt work out the way I had hoped, I know that i am capable of having emotions. So in 2012 I wont be so dang negative about relationships and what not. lol
I am letting go of the toxic relationship I have with a friend. That saddens me, but I know it is for the best. It's going to be hard not responding to texts and not picking up calls but honestly, its for the best and this person is selfish and needs to focus on himself before he can be any good for anyone else.
With that being said,
Happy New Year!
See ya next year...

XOXO
Erica

Random Post

So Christmas has came and went. While it did not seem like Christmas with 80* weather here in California it was a nice day. The kids enjoyed their gifts from everyone. I enjoyed my family time.

So yesterday, Big Boy from Power 106, our local radio station dropped a book called "An XL life: Staying Big at half the size" Its about his life (duh) but what really got me to want his book was him having weight loss surgery. I mean come on, who doesnt want to read about a man who weighed 500 pounds and was able to shed the pounds.

Anyway, I started reading the book on BN.com and had to run to get the book right after work yesterday. I started it last night and my eyes got teary. Being an emotional eater myself, I can totally see how his childhood could be the underlying problem to his weight gain. I cant for the life of me figure out the source of my emotional eating. An unhappy marriage? My childhood wasn't the best either. I think I see my childhood a lot differently than others may have seen it. I wish I could go more into my thoughts about my childhood, but I wont.

Speaking of emotional eating. I still do this on occasion. I get upset and I head for the kitchen. I stop myself a lot of the times because well there just isnt anything to snack on. I refuse to buy snack foods for this reason. I would have to actually make something and well when I am emotional, I rather not cook. I need to find a proper outlet so that I do not mess up the lapband by over eating or eating when things are wrong.

So my goals this year are to get down to 150. If i go lower, cool, but at the end of 2012 I better be 150 lbs!
Anyway gotta get to work sooo until next time,

Oh and go get Big Boys book "An XL Life: Staying Big at Half The Size"


XOXO

Life

So I have lost all motivation to be honest. That is my issue. I have none. I am at a very happy point in my life. My home is a home and not some crappy apartment I sleep at. I have healthy kids. My love life stinks, but it has since I divorced David back in 08 or 09 whenever that was. Oh, there was a brief moment when I was dealing with JK, that was nice, until things changed with him. (-_-) What is my issue?! I do well for a good 3 weeks and bam I do something that sends me into a "I dont give a shit" mood for another 2 weeks. I really need to figure out what that trigger is so I can avoid it at all costs. Last week I didn't eat horrible just didn't do my shakes like I had been doing and didn't lose anything. :( Oh well. Its life. So now I just gotta really get on the ball and focus on losing these last 4 lbs so I can hit my under 200 lbs by my 1 year anniversary which is quickly approaching.
I think maybe the fact that I haven't left California since my car accident at the end of May. I need a mini vacation. A refresher. And I will get one when I go back to Atlanta! I can not wait to go hang with my friends and get inked by Melvin, The most awesome tattoo guy ever! lol Anyway maybe that is what is it, I'm semi sad cus i need to get away from Cali. And if its not that, I dunno...
Anyway I think I am going to go to 24 hour fitness after work and see what kind of deal I can get to join. lol I really need to work these emotions out. I hate being emotional. It makes me feel like a cry baby and a "sissy lala" That's not my thing. I'll leave that to others! Sometimes I wish that other Lapband people lived in my area, I think it would help motivate me. Damnit Rhonnie just needs to move to the OC so we can workout together ha! Wishful thinking.
Well my break is over, until I have some more venting...
XOXO

BYOC

BYOC - Bring Your Own Crazy!  We answer a couple of questions in an effort to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy and paste and answer in your own blogs if you'd like!! ENJOY!!

1. Describe the structure you live in. (apartment, condo, house, mansion, cardboard box?)
   An apartment 1st floor of 3 stories. I love it!
2. Describe the city you live in. (population, main attractions)
   I live in Anaheim, Ca - Home of Disneyland and the Angels! Tourist town. Lots of things to do. I wouldn't have it any other way!
3. Why do you live in the town you live in? (job, to get away from a different town, family, schools?)
   I moved here when I was 18 from a city over, moved away to Las Vegas and came back here. Its home.
   
4. What’s the view like from your backyard?
   No backyard :(
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.
   In real life, things are going well. No changes. Just living and working.
   In blogland, nothing. I need to step it up! lol

Anxiety

So tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I am running into a bit of Anxiety. Thinking of all the food that will be there and now I KNOW I am going to want to sample everything ( I am my grandma kellas grandchild). This is my first holiday with the band. how do ya'll keep from over-eating. I mean if i do over-eat I will throw up :/ But yah.... I am still bringing my baby sized plate with me, but what is going to stop me from putting more food on it? Willpower? hmmm yea maybe not? And if someone makes a comment I may do it just cause im hardheaded like that ;) I kind of want to stay my butt home. That is how bad the anxiety is. Am I the only one with this issue? I wouldn't think so but that's how I feel. Oh well this is just another thing to hop over and not feel guilty about it... Gotta go back to work now...
XOXO
Erica

BYOC Friday!

It's FRIDAY so that means it's BYOC - Bring Your Own Crazy! Brought to you by the one and only Drazil! We answer a couple of questions in an effort to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy and paste and answer in your own blogs if you'd like!! ENJOY!!

1. What is your FAVORITE part of Thanksgiving?
   Well it used to be eating, I'm not sure, I'd be lying if I said family. I am super anti-social. :)
   
2. How many Thanksgiving family events will you attend?
   Two - My family and David's family, yes, I still spend holiday's with the ex-husband lol
3. What’s your biggest Thanksgiving tradition?
   We don't have one.
   
4. Do you Black Friday shop the day after Thanksgiving?
   I have before, but not this year. Not really in a holiday mood.
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog world.
   In blogworld, same as yesterday, trying to really start blogging more...
   
   In real life, things are great.

BYOC ?!?!

Guess I will jump on the band wagon....

Let’s get to what we came here for! BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy. A couple questions we answer to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break. Copy and paste to your own blog if you wish! Enjoy!

Let’s do another themed BYOC…..this one will be called “What’s In/On Your….?”

1. What’s on your desk between your monitor and keyboard? (if it’s a laptop – what’s on your desk in general)



Some sticky notes and a Hello Kitty toy

2. What’s on your mind right at this moment?

Another thought of my awesome tattoo idea

3. What’s in or on your nightstand on your side of the bed?

I dont have a nightstand. But next to my bed I have a bottle of water and the remote control.

4. What’s on YOUR Christmas wish list (let’s assume you’d get what was on it)?

Money - easy, money to do whatever I wish with which will be to save for my Atlanta trip. :D
 
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.
Real life is random. Filled with work and kids. And a little play time in between.

Blog life is getting better. I am trying to stay on board with posting and what not but its not easy when I dont have much to say.

Ramblings

Looking at old pictures.......
I do this every day almost to remind myself that I have came so far, 56 pounds may not seem like that much compared to people who have lost damn near 100 pounds in their first year but its a huge weight off of my back, literally. I am human and I allow myself to make mistakes (usually eating or trying to eat something I should not) but that is the beauty in this journey. Being able to make mistakes then correcting them and not allowing yourself to feel guilty. My journey is not going to be like yours, and yours will never be mine. So since I have realized that I wont lose 100 pounds in my first year I have noticed a difference in myself. For the better of course.

These past 10 months have been very emotional for me, I have never allowed my emotions get the best of me. I have held it all in and together. But boy oh boy when they say once you have this surgery things will come up, they sure do. I find myself getting teary eyed over every little thing. A TV show, a commercial. Even remembering my Atlanta trip. Silly, I know. Its crazy how I can go from so happy to so sad and alone within moments. I do not wish this upon anyone, okay well maybe a couple of people. ;)

Next week I take Kianna to go see Katy Perry. I am really not too excited for this to be honest but anything to make my kids happy right? When I took Ayanna to Power House 2011 I seen a smile I had never seen before which made me happy. So its my turn to see Miss Kianna smile i suppose.

Anyway im off to work now...
XOXO

Holidays & Such

So the holidays are quickly approaching. I did not realize that Thanksgiving is only 9 days away. This is my first holiday with the lapband so I am kind of nervous. I was kidding around today when I said I would take my own plate with me to Thanksgiving dinner than I thought that it was a good idea so that i do not over eat. If it can not fit on my plate, it should not be eaten, right? My plates I use at home are kid plates with the sections on it. It gives me a sense of how much to eat. It works well for me when I am at home. I have had this blog about a year now. Woah thats insane. I dont write as much as I would like to but hey, I am here sometimes!
In 2 days I will have had the band for 10 months - Now i wish i could say i had hit a record  or got under 200 pounds by this point. But I haven't. And I am okay with that. By my 1 year I would like to have gotten to that under 200 lb goal. Its a very realistic goal since I am only 5 lbs away from it. I need to lose about 55 more pounds to get to my Goal. If i want to get to my weight that I "should be" its 75 pounds. Ill stick with MY goal. Thanks!
In about a month I will be 32. *gasp* I am unsure how to feel, happy that I made it to 32? Especially after my accident. Or sad that I am now 32. Eeeek! For my birthday, I would love to go to Atlanta and get tattooed by Melvin (www.melvintodd.com) but in the real world, I can't. #1 we have a black out period of time we can not take off and #2 I can not afford it right now. I have these dope ideas for my next session with Melvin. I get super excited just thinking about it. Yea I am silly I know. Anyway, for my birthday, I just want a dinner with my family & friends. A seafood spot. Lets hope I get what I want. 
Anyway back to work I go...Until next time...

XOXO

I am such a slacker..

So I said i was going to post my scale pictures and I ended up getting frustrated because the line up of them kept getting out of order. I was trying to post them in the correct dates and stuff and they were just not doing it right. Anyway I weighed myself and I am now 207.6! woot woot. it is such a slow journey compared to others, but really, who cares. This is NOT a race. This is my life. So i may be a bit slower on the weight loss but hey at least im not gaining.
I felt like i needed a change so i cut my hair. It was to the middle of my back and now its to my neck.

 I really love the new hair. It looks so healthy... Anyway have a blessed sunday!
XOXO
E

My Crazy Thoughts...

Im not even sure how to start this one off. I have so many issues that may be holding me back. First let me just say, i am so glad I have lost as much weight as I have since having the Lapband done in January. That being said, I feel like i should be so much farther along in my weight loss. And maybe I would be if I worked out. Right now, i just walk. And sure walking should help but yah... anyway, in a perfect world i would look in the mirror and say, Damn Erica, you look GOOD! but in MY world, i see the same fat girl i did 8 months ago. I only really notice the loss in pictures of me. I think oh wow, i look small here - and that should be the end of that, but its not. I end the sentence with, but my belly is still big! *sigh*
I am only writing this because I know I am not the only one feeling this way. So i looked in the mirror after getting out of the shower today and started to cry. My stomach is less than flattering. Nothing else bothers me to be honest, my stomach is just ugh! So I get dressed, i wear a navy blue shirt in an Juniors XL (i havent fit this size since I had my oldest 13 years ago) and some jeggings (yes i said jeggings). I see myself and i think UGH. Then i snap a couple of pics and i say heyyyy I look good... Its amazing how the mirror and pictures differ in someones eyes. But at the end of the day, what I look at is the mirror. How can I change the negative thoughts I have when i see myself. Everyone in the world can tell me "you look great" "wow" etc but what I see isnt the same as what they see....

So these are the pics that I am speaking of:

Front View 9-18-11

Side View 9-18-11

And a before picture for comparison:

Not a very good pic but you can see i was much bigger...

Blah Blah Blah

GOSH Why am I setting myself up for failure?!?! That is how I feel right now. I have my moments where I say "Erica, this is simple. You've changed your eating habits a lot already, so go ahead and change up a little bit more" but then I get a simple craving, and BAM, I screw up and eat that junk and then feel shitty so what do I do? Eat it again!!!
Really?!?! WHO does that?!?! Me!
I have been drinking more water than I normally do, so at least that is changing. Sometimes I annoy myself so much. SMH
After speaking with someone, who i respect their opinion, about me posting the scale pics I have been taking over the past few months, I have decided to go ahead and post them. So tonight when I get home after I make dinner I will post scale pics. I wish I had thought to take them from the verrrry beginning. With this blog I leave out so many things because I fear opening myself up to people. I am working on that.
Anyway im off work so buh byeeee for now...

Horrible Blogger

Yes, I am well aware that i have been a horrible blogger. I dont even know when the last time i blogged was, but im back so with that said, I have not lost any weight since my last adjustment in July. I have been 213 since then, well i gained a pound so I am now 214 by the Dr scale. Mine, says 212. I guess I need to really start having an actual workout and not just walk. It has been almost 8 months since I had the lapband and I am down 50 lbs and the PA said that my weight loss is fine. I feel like it should be more but hey 50 lbs is 50 lbs and i will take it. My band is now at a 7.1. Feeling a bit restriction now. So i shall be good. I have been doing well with it. This may be my last adjustment. Now its my turn to work my booty off literally lol. Now a question for ya'll: Is anyone having isses with their port site being bigger than the other side of their tummy?
So here is a couple pictures of me now:


9/10/11



New Pics



So i went out over the weekend and wore my new dress! Its soooo darn cute! I looked hot if i dont say so myself LMAO *tootin my own horn* I dont wear much make up, just a lil lipgloss and some powder...



Before the club



Picking up Myisha



Myisha and I in the car





So we went to Club Curves. Its hot as hell in that place. I must have sweat out about 3 pounds. lol But i had a great time. I danced almost all night. I cant wait to do it again.



XOXO,

E

Eating Out..

I took the kids to eat dinner last week at this great and cheap. I got a chicken tosada. Explaining to the waitress that i needed a smaller portion, she looked at me sideways. I wonder what goes through peoples heads when I say i need a small portion or when i ask for the food AND a to-go box. Oh well that really does not matter. ;)
So does everyone else find it hard to eat out and stay within the amount of food you should eat? I did good that night i have to admit, i was stoked that i was gonna have some yummy left overs but the next day, the chicken didnt like me and ended up getting stuck and well I threw it out :(

SIX MONTHS?!?!?!

Wow has it really been six months since my surgery?! I went in not knowing how things would turn out. All I could think was THIS has to be the start of the new me. And here I am, six months later and so much happier. I never thought I could feel this way AND look this way. As of right now though my band is way too tight so that means i am unable to eat anything without it coming back up :( I knew that could happen, and all i need to do is go back to the Dr so they can remove some out of the band and ill be good and off these protein shakes. Although they are good (Body Fortress Cookies and Cream - Walmart $14.) I really want to eat lol Yah, im greedy. Finding so many people on Twitter that have had the Lapband is awesome! Reading their tweets inspires me. I just wish i had the motivation to work out on a regular. I went from a size 22 in December to a size 16 now. I am a happy woman. My first original goal was

 a size 14 and now that I am pretty much there, I think I would like to be a size 9. A 14 is still too big for my small frame.

XOXO,

Erica



Pictures for your viewing pleasure lol



Me 12-24-11



Me 07-15-11



Car Accident

Soooo a lot has happened since my last post. I went to Las Vegas for Memorial Day weekend. Had a good time hanging out and going to the movies. On Monday as I was heading home, i got into a car accident. My poor Saturn Ion flipped THREE times. And I was not hurt! *God was with me, as was my Gramma Kella*

I am so bad at keeping up this blog. I dont know why, its not like I have anything else to do when im at home ;) Anyway, here is a picture of my car...

I ended up buying a used car, a little red toyota corolla with less miles than the my poor ion. I miss my Ion so much! :(

Adjustment

So last Tuesday i had my 2nd adjustment. I am at 6cc's now. And the band is too tight. :/ I havent ate much of anything but some protein shakes. A bit of chicken here and there. lol I need to go back and have them remove 1cc. But ill wait for a little bit. I was able to eat some chicken from Del Taco with lettuce and cheese. It was super good! I've lost 4 lbs since Tuesday. Woot woot! I am almost at 50 lbs gone! I only have 15 lbs before i hit the 100's. I feel awesome! I know that this is gonna happen slowly (the weight loss) but i hope i can lose these 15 lbs by my next appt in 7 weeks!
I really need to get into the gym. I keep saying I am going to go, but the gym is so far from my house. I need to get rid of that membership and go to 24 hour fitness. Or just get that home Gym thing and do some work outs at home? Where would i store that thing though? Hmmmm I need to work on my arms and my tummy. Can anyone suggest some stomach work outs I can do at home?
Until next time....

Almost 4 months..

So next tuesday it will be 4 months since I had the band put in. I am down 42 lbs. I am stuck here. Been this weight for a few weeks now. I am not sure what I am doing wrong (no excercise). I do get an adjustment on the 16th, thank goodness! I think i need it. I am getting tired of eating chicken :( But really, beef does not sit well in my tummy and pork chops either. So shredded chicken it is. I dont have much to say today. I just felt like i wasnt posting enough so i thought i'd post and then add a picture. This picture keeps amazing me. I feel like I dont look like that. I guess its all in my mind because pictures dont lie. Either way, I feel great and I am thankful for my weight loss i have had. This is a slow process, well that is what I have to keep reminding myself. It has only been 4 months. Someone I know has had it a year with only a 25 lb loss. So I am happy to be where I am! Now if i can just get my butt into the gym, it would be great!

Me -42 lbs

My Atl Trip!

So I am back from Atlanta, sadly. I had a great time and was so worried about the eating situation. I got there early and checked into my hotel and went to sleep for a couple hours. I spent all day at City Of Ink. That place is awesome, if you are ever planning on visiting ATL and into Tattoos make sure you check em out. http://www.cityofink.com/
Anyway, I was tattoo'd by Melvin Todd. http://www.melvintodd.com/ He is awesome! Great personality and wonderful artist. I am truly honored to have his work on my arm for all to see.
I ate at Varsity's (never again), Slice, J.R. Crickets and Waffle House. And I managed to lose 4 lbs while out there. How did I do that? I have no idea, maybe cus we walked alot. Oh, and I didnt snack. So woo hoo for me for not gaining any weight while away!

Here is the outcome! Lovely right!! I want to post more pics but as we know, my work does not allow us to get on to sites so i cant snag my pics yet lol
XOXO til next time...

E

11 Weeks...

Wow, has it already been 11 weeks since I've had the lapband done?! Time is flying by..I am at 40 lbs gone as of right now. Cool. I want more. As Josh would say, I dont want to be ordinary i want to be great! LOL So im hitting the gym tonight with my new gym buddy Lily, her son Max is on Kavika's baseball team! It's so great to meet other parents with similar interests. I have been kind of slacking on measuring my food lately. :( So i gotta get back on that. Although i do not think i over eat, i would like to see exactly how much i am eating.

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Damn im always slacking on finishing my blogs, that was started 4/6. Anyway im just sending "as is" lol

Blogging just to blog

I don't really have too much to say really, I am 10 weeks out or so with my surgery and still learning how to eat and get the most out of what I eat. I find myself eating chicken and eggs only because its so easy to eat. I have to admit, i find myself wanting some chicken and corn bread with some sweet potatos a lot. lol But there is no way i can fit all of that into a half a cup meal lol So i will just wish.
In just 2 short weeks, I will be headed to Atlanta again. I am so excited about this trip, but at the same time, nervous. How is my body going to react with food :/ And am i going to be able to tolerate the southern cooking? lol Yikes! Just have to remind myself to not over eat.
Tonight I am going to a Lapband support meeting with my mom. She needs to understand that I can be healthy eating only 4 oz at a time. I do take a few vitamins for that reason. At least my hair isnt falling out as much as it was before. ;) I think I actually gained a lb since last weigh in :/ dont ask how that happened cus im not really sure? ugh.
I wish i could upload pics from work but they blocked attachments from coming into our emails. smh. Really? Is it THAT serious? I have so many to post. My face is so different looking.

Ahhh ish! It let me save one pic. So here I am :D

This is a before pic:



Ehhh

So my stomach looks so much better, no redness or anything. I am going to assume i get my first fill on the 22nd. 9 weeks from my surgery date! Man this has been a long 9 weeks. I am down about 35 lbs now from my scale. I havent seen this weight since I had Kianna. 0_o. I often ask myself, HOW did i let this happen?! Why did i allow myself to get so dang fat. smh. But i really dont have a response to it. I would always say, Yah im fat but im cute so it dont matter! Yes, it does matter cus although I am not unattractive, my mind was! Inside i was miserable. And you could tell by my attitude. I see myself differently now. I may not be anywhere near my goal weight, but I already feel different inside. Anyway when i first had the surgery I was a size 22, I am now fitting into a Forever 21 size 16. I am unsure if those run big or what, but a SIXTEEN!!! woo hoo! Now dont get me wrong, if there isnt any stretch, i cant fit into a 16 lol Probably an 18. But whatever I have a pair of size 16 pants on now *takes a bow*
I miss my friends. I feel kinda lonely. My bestie is in Vegas, and i havent spoken much to any other friends here. So tonight I have decided to take my butt out! I havent gone out since New years eve. I dont count Vegas cus really, i was still recovering and my butt should have been home anyway lol. Most of my clothes are way too big so I gotta figure out what I am gonna wear out. :/ And do I have one drink or not. I havent had a drink since before my surgery so I do not know how it will affect me. I am kinda scared.
Anyway gotta get back to work
XOXO
E

6 weeks out

Well so much has happened in these short 6 weeks. I have been fighting off an infection at my port site. I am on my 2nd round of antibiotics. :( I have yet to get a fill due to the infection, but i am at 31 lbs gone so far. Woo Hoo. Well thats from MY home scale lol I was getting nervous so i decided to go see my dr's office to get a 2nd opinion on the infection. The Dr said he has seen much worse but gave me a shot of antibiotics in addition to what I was already taking. Sometimes I wish I had never done this, but then I am happy with my decision. It is certainly not as easy as i thought it was going to be. I have to always have my meals planned and i cant just get up and go, and maybe grab something while im out. Measuring out the food etc. Knowing how much to eat. The PA says 1/2 a cup. But when i look in my notes it says i should eat 3-4 oz of meat - well 4 oz is 1/2 cup.. what about my veggies etc? ugh I may have to go to a dang nutrition meeting soon so i know exactly what I should be eating and brush up on my information. Anyway, I'll post some pics tonight when I get home. I dont think much has changed.

XOXO

Pictures

So this was the day of the surgery. Me and my momma!

And this is me today

You can already see a difference in my face and I am loving it. I look so much better!

Back to Normal

Okay so not really. But I am now back working. 3 weeks off was enough i suppose. I am still sore. Things are going well on my first day back. I cant get comfy though while sitting at my desk. And i need a nap badly!
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Feb 11th.

So I have not been able to finish a dang blog. So this week has tested me. It is so hard to be at work and eat properly. Sometimes I wish i had taken all 6 weeks off so that i could have at least had time to stop all soreness! Anyway I am unsure if i have lost anymore weight because well i feel like I have due to my clothes being loose on me and my face being smaller but my scale says no. :( One day at a time I suppose. I can not wait to go back to a support meeting and another nutrition class. I think i need to brush up on my information.

I feel good though all in all. I will post some pictures this weekend from my mom's computer. Since my laptop is broken. You can see the weight loss in my face.

XOXO
E

So it's done!

I've been a bad blogger. LOL I had my surgery on MLK Jr Day. The 17th of Jan. Let me just say, it is harder than i thought it would be! The first week was killer, i was sore and swollen, still am swollen and a bit sore. But i would do it all over again. Besides the fact I am on a restricted diet still, all is well! I have also been going to church as well. Its time to make over myself! Not just my body but my mind as well.
The week following surgery, i was on that liquid diet and let me tell you, Malt o Meal became my best friend! LOL Broth is nasty and the cream soups are gross too. I am already a picky eater so trying to find something I liked was hard. Monday, the 24th came and i was able to eat a bit more. So i made a scrambled egg and let me tell you - that was the best egg in the world. It took me so long to finish one egg and i was full with just that. So crazy! Cottage cheese for lunch with some applesauce was great too. LOL Imagine the look of a kid in a candy store when i got to eat semi normal food!! I can tell a difference in my clothes that I have already lost some weight. I cant see it in me but my pants are baggy and a couple of shirts that were tight are loose which makes me so happy!
My first appt for the follow up is Monday i believe, i will get to see how much exactly i've lost and get my first adjustment. I am nervous about that. I dont know why. I am trying to walk as much as possible. I go on walks daily to get some sun. It feels soooo good to be able to get out in the day and see what the world is like during "work hours."
The past week i would have never survived had Lamar not been there to help me. Although he kept saying "you'll be alright" when i would say ouch or whine about my pain, him being there helped me not to be sad cus i was alone lol. He also was an accessory to me chopping my hair off!!! Dang him! I cut a lot off. o_O Imma miss his company now that things are slowly returning back to normal.
Anyway I'm going to get off this computer and walk my moms evil dog so i can get some sun!
XOXO
E